Post by dapples on Jan 17, 2011 12:40:33 GMT -6
.Luna-Moon Tesreau.
Full Name: Luna-Moon Valkerie Exodus Tesreau
Nick Names: Luna or Blooper(If you're close to her)
Student or Staff: Student
House (if student): White Ribbon House
Age: fifteen-years-old(and a half
)Ethnicity: American .
Gender: Female
Sexuality: Straight .
Physical Description: Luna is a beauitful young lady , she doesn't believe it though . In her eyes she is disgusting but she doesn't see what other people do and maybe she'll never see it .
Luna has soft hazel eyes with a deep redish tinge to them that sparkle in the sun and glow from the moon . She has a soft warm face that is filled with pain and regret , she never smiles anymore . I don't think she's smiled in the past year . She has her upper lip and lower lip pierced . Luna's hair is naturally curly but she does many things to it including dying her hair .
A little bit on the short side Luna stands about five foot two , plus a quarter ! She is lender and delicate , probably of th lack of food she takes in . Her melanchelic depression causes her to eat less then she should and maybe her feels about herself and needing to look trim and beauitful though there is nothing beauitful about starving yourself .
Personality:
Warning , this is going to get confusing , maybe . I would like to say I am a very unique girl with an interesting personality . I have a borderline personality disorder(BPD) . Now , before you start calling me crazy and stuff just shut up and let me talk . I'm not crazy , far from different . I just have more then one obstical to get over then "normal" people do . Like yes , at one point I was rather unstable , insane if you want to call it but I have passed that point after many appointments and classes to over come and learn to cope with my "issues" . Now I'm no my last test , can I handle the real world . Oh lord no imma die out there ! Well thats how I usually veiw things but I push through it . I give myself tough love .
Well lets get started . First off I would like to say BPD is characterized by depth and variability of moods which you will hear more about later on . We'll start with what they call black and white thinking . I have a tendancy to be feeling boundless optimism when things are going well but will always take a sudden switch to a total despair at the first setback . I also label people god or bad on first glance . I try hard to fight the urge to do these things but it's a hard task to just drop . Then I do a thing called splitting which has idealization (great admiration or love) and devaluation (intense anger or dislike) episodes . I'm not saying I'll go all out physco on you but yes , I may show some anger but I'd never hands down freak out and lose it on somone . I've learned how to control my anger better toward people and that trying to talk is better then throwing punches or just walking away . Just don't expect me to get over it and forgive you right away . I also have anxiety where I can get rather panicy about things and with go back and both between being angry and paniced . But people with BPD may expericence intense bouts of anger , depression , and anxiety which I get all of that last for hours , at most a day .
There is also the fact that I'm very sensitive to the way others treat me , reacting strongly to perceived critcism or hurtfulness . Some would say I am hyper-alert to signs of rejection or not being valued . You could say that I value my friends but it's tough for me to keep them because of how I act sometimes . My feelings for others often shift from positive to negative , generally after a disappointment or a perceived threat of losing someone . I have a huge fear of abandonment . I worked a long time on this problem but still this has been the hardest thing for me to over come and still is a rather large problem . You can say that I'm still a bit unstable with friendships and relationships as I get confused on what others wont and a funny joke to them could be harsh words to me . That's why I have a hard time making friends .
Behind the walls where it's just me I'm self-destructive and I cut myself down frequently without a real reason for it . Maybe out of habit ? or maybe a deeper meaning that hasn't been uncovered yet since on the outside I seem like a normal beauitful girl who just has limited communication skills . Not saying im stupid but sometimes I get "stuck" when I'm talking . But with my view the world is dangerous and malvolent and I'm powerless , vulnerable , unacceptable and unsure of who I really am . I've been lead to frequent long-goal changes , career plan changes , job changes , losing friendships , and feeling I lack values that should be there . I'm by far from suicidle , just rather emotional , but you can't deny the fact that I have a personality disorder that things can't turn that way . I'm lucky to not be suicidal right now and lets hope it stays that way .
History:
Hello , my name is Luna-Moon Valkerie Exodus Tesreau , or better known as Luna . I was raised in West Virginia , born in Charleston but shortly moved to Summersville when my mother , Crystal , obtained a job at a riding stable called Imagery Stables . Quickly we moved in on the ranch in a small house right on the property near the stable . My mother was a single women but very ambitious and took everything very seriously . I was homeschooled due to the lack of trasportation out to the schools and started schooling rather early but not the kind of schooling your thinking . My mother was all about the horses , she was so serious about it . I started riding at the age of four .
When I first started riding I rode western for the first three years before I started forming my own opinions since I was older . At seven-years-old I switched out to English riding . I started with low level dressage which turned into what I did to supple my horses . My main event though was Equitation , Halter , under saddle , and over fences doing show hunter . I did many things though like Hunt seat , Cross-Country , competetive trail riding , and western pleasure . The thing was I wasn't a big show girl and I prefered to just wounder around on the trails .
My life wasn't always great though . I lost my mother when I was thirteen-years-old when her horse had rolled over on her and crushed her . I was really close to my mother and it killed me to lose her and with her gone I obtained her gorgeous gelding who I started riding in competative trails and in western pleasure . I still moped about in the house since the owner of the barn , Mallory , let me stay and work at a stable hand for minimum wage . About a year and a half into the year after many competitions and making and saving some good money I bought myself this horse . He was cute and something new to work with . When I first got him he wasn't broke or trained but it went by quickly with Mallory's help , he was calm and easy to work with too . While I worked with my horses I also sent out an application to BRRA , I just couldn't be here anymore . I needed to move away from what haunted me .
Misc: Luna was never born a "normal" child and has many disorders . read about them in her personality .
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.Fox.
Name: Fox .
Age: Three years old .
Species: Dog .
Breed: Mutt(Is a rather large mix)
Personality:
- Fox is well , cunning like a fox with quick thinking and reaction which is why she is with Luna . If something happens she is suppose to think quickly , absorb the current sarroundings , get help .
- Fox is relaxed and easy going , a low maintnace dog who's good for just laying around .
- Fox knows when it's time to work and time to play , she never gets out of hand and is very well-mannored .
- A little wary of strangers but she doesn't bite or bark at them but will watch with a close eye .
History: Fox's life was pretty simple . She was born a street dog and then put into an animal shelter where she was adopted . Her adopted family trained her for their daughter who had "issues" with normal behavior . Fox stayed there for a while but was eventually given to Luna because of her problems and overly suicidal ways and reckless thinkign so if something happens Fox is to either stay and bark for help or go get help .
